Boo! Cincinnati I'm back, in case you haven't noticed!
Definitely didn't expect that one. I wasn't planning on leaving California. I love California, and I totally loved living there. I guess I just got so tired of missing my family and wishing that I could be here, and knowing that I'm planning to leave the country in June that I just wanted to spend time back in Ohio. It all happened so fast. I decided. I packed. I drove four days. I got home. Two weeks later, apartment and job-done!
Can't say I have any regrets. I hate the gray cloudy weather all the time. I feel like Ohioans and those in the midwest in general must be so unhappy and depressed all the time considering their surroundings are so dark and desolate and rainy all the time. However, I know that's not really true. No matter how much I miss the weather, and I do for sure miss the ocean and going to sit on the beach and think, I'd rather sit around a fire, or in my dad's living room or with a bunch of my friends here and hang out than be in California on the beach alone. I realized for sure that I do like living by myself, and being on my own and not surrounded by people 24/7 and that was a great thing to understand about myself. Now that I'm back in Ohio I remember WHY I love being around my friends and my family so much, but with my own apartment I can keep myself low key and not surrounded all the time-leading me to be so much happier!

I've also been thinking about how much I miss the way the holidays used to be. Before two families became one, before being around my mom was weird, when we always went out of town for Thanksgiving and Christmas and were gone for a week at a time. I miss all the grandkids and aunts and uncles at my grandpa's, I miss my mom's family at my aunt's. My life is good, my family is great, but growing up totally blows sometimes. Plus, Nathan and Katie aren't even going to be here for Christmas. I miss them, a lot, to be sure. The two of them, Kelly Lori and Hillary are the most missed people from my west coast life. Oh and my rainbows everyday...seriously? What's with actually having to wear real shoes all the time?! ha craziness.

Conclusion I've come to about the holidays: doesn't matter how much I miss what used to be, I still have a ridiculously amazing family and I love them so very much, and being together-doesn't matter whose house-is what's important. Growing up can suck, but it's also a necessary evil and new traditions can be pretty kickass, too.

Next adventure: Spain. June 2009 :) Very excited about this, very very excited!

again...earlier than expected.

LEAVING FOR CALIFORNIA TOMORROW!!!!!!!

come visit :)

so, just thought i should let xanga know...i'm officially done with massage school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

graduation is on the 27th.
18 months, done over with and gone....weird. it's been a long 18 months, but all the sudden it feels like it flew by.
anyway...california in 4 months! and you know that's just gonna zoom on up and be here before i know it!